Monthly Archives: December 2016

Existence Failed

Masks we put on just to merely exist.

MEANINGLESS.

Getting ready for the coffin. 

Laid down with depression who is mocking. 

Figure out a way. 

Figure out to escape. 

Looking closer on the shine of the blade.

Nothing remains. 

Body is rotting, soul is a waste. 

Can’t face this kind of hate. 

Why am I here?

With no reason, just in fear. 

Give a gun and shoot the deer. 

Never realising that it was your peer. 

Yes!!! the brain of a failure.

Getting needy to end it right here. 

 

Senses lost again. 

Existence getting failed. 

Sleepess over nightmares. 

Begging me to end it right away. 

Thoughts again elevate. 

Destructive poison faced. 

Existence getting failed. 

Survival erased. 

Living in a hollow phase. 

It’s now seeming that being dead is a shade.

Thoughts again elevate. 

That there’s no time to waste. 

Worthlessness surrounds the game.

It’s now you have to self terminate. 

Leave this fucking place. 

Existence getting failed. 

 

Reality is frightening.

Painfully obliging. 

Leave you down to crying. 

Pushing you towards dying. 

Alcoholism taking mine,

Abusive father that says he’s fine. 

Everytime lying. 

Selfishily denying. 

Give it a break. 

Now I will start to fade. 

Instead of hate. 

I will die and you will be late.

What a waste.  

What a miserable cave. 

My coffin awaits. 

 

Senses lost again. 

Existence getting failed. 

Sleepess over nightmares. 

Begging me to end it right away. 

Thoughts again elevate. 

Destructive poison faced. 

Existence getting failed. 

Survival erased. 

Living in a hollow phase. 

It’s now seeming that being dead is a shade.

Thoughts again elevate. 

That there’s no time to waste. 

Worthlessness surrounds the game.

It’s now you have to self terminate. 

Leave this fucking place. 

Existence getting failed. 

 

You have a lifeless life.

So why do I fight to survive? 

Can’t even lead the blind. 

When you yourself are not right. 

Too negative for any price. 

Hold onto no more. 

Hopes never got reassured. 

Burden to your own nose. 

Nothing inside is now pure. 

Toxic damages the cure.

Relapse to close the doors. 

Suicidal blood on the floor. 

Filthy neglection to hold. 

As the mystery slowly unfolds. 

Still no one would know. 

What killed me from the inside, never told. 

Shameful body and a cutting soul. 

Those godamn scars will never go. 

End it here, right now, yes for sure.

 

Senses lost again. 

Existence getting failed. 

Sleepess over nightmares. 

Begging me to end it right away. 

Thoughts again elevate. 

Destructive poison faced. 

Existence getting failed. 

Survival erased. 

Living in a hollow phase. 

It’s now seeming that being dead is a shade.

Thoughts again elevate. 

That there’s no time to waste. 

Worthlessness surrounds the game.

It’s now you have to self terminate. 

Leave this fucking place. 

Existence getting failed. 

Written by P.S (PATIENT Stan)