Filled With Fat

Perfect is illusion.

1 – Don’t you understand? 

What fills you is fat. 

Godamn. 

Do what you can,  

Just overcome this expand.

With what you have.

Don’t you understand? 

Godamn. 

What fills you is fat.

 

2 – Prepare the mice. 

It will all serve right. 

Until the price. 

Is what we get to describe. 

Too easily to get bribed. 

Too easily madness drives. 

Insane enough that multiples. 

 

3 – Ruining your skin. 

This fat just begins. 

To cover up your shit.

The void is from within.

That needs to be filled. 

Or else it will just stay there like filth. 

Until that, crazy bitch will wipe off my grin.

And will start to feed my mind & my free will.

Slowly she would make me ill. 

Silently she would sit still.

Till her time is at peak and I must be killed. 

On peripheries of numerous thrills.

 

4 – Sleepy, not able to concentrate. 

I still need to lose a few more of my weight. 

But now I’m unable to get my head straight. 

It’s always the blame game. 

Haunting me again & again. 

Nights filled with severe stomach pain. 

Still starving because there’s no other way. 

I still need to lose a few more of my weight. 

Now when I even face food my thoughts run insane. 

Punished by myself by dragging a blade. 

Just to end that shame. 

I turned open, depression’s gate.

And blades became my addiction that never could be explained. 

 

1 – Don’t you understand? 

What fills you is fat. 

Godamn. 

Do what you can,  

Just overcome this expand.

With what you have.

Don’t you understand? 

Godamn. 

What fills you is fat.

Written By P.S 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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3 thoughts on “Filled With Fat

    1. agoraphobpsychopath Post author

      Hey, Hi there. Thank you so much for your feedback it means alot to me. My writing style can be quite negative, aggressive & triggering for some people. But that’s how I absolutely like. Not to runaway but instead write the cold, harsh, brutal truth at any cost. Eating disorders are not a joke and when tangled up with depression, anxiety & self harm, it could take away the living life out of you; speaking from my personal experience. I’ll fetch you 2 more of my writings. And I hope you’ll relate to it and like them too. Thank you once again, stay strong dear. Here you go –
      https://agoraphobpsychopath.wordpress.com/2016/11/17/this-fat-that-hits/

      https://agoraphobpsychopath.wordpress.com/2016/05/30/perfect-imperfections/

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